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I'm striving to instigate more circles of productivity in all areas of my life. More regular spurts of activity, uninterrupted, to be more productive. Running, cleaning, (dreaming about getting up earlier too but still haven't made that one happen). As we become busier, we're needing more routine, to save time. Something as simple as a planner which I haven't used in so long, is becoming very very necessary.
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Driving to and from North Valley Music school or my longer Friday commutes to music schools, I dream of the connection we all have, this web of people and lives. I think about the brief interractions we have with some people, and how they can change us forever.
When I was pregnant with Josey (and Eliza), many of my friends would share the stories of their friends who'd had babies with me. One woman I heard a lot about, and loved meeting was Tamara. The mom of 5, she loved homebirth and midwifery. While I wasn't quite ready for a homebirth at that point in time, I stored the bits and pieces Tamara shared about her experiences with me. She was so kind and open and gave me confidence in a time of newness with my pregnancy and motherhood.
Last week, Tamara lost her first daughter Savannah in a car accident, at 21. Her niece and Savannah's best friend was killed, too. The news shook me in my moods last week, as that sudden news of death is always jarring. Last Fall in the Florence family, a beloved student/athlete/musician/role model was killed in a car accident during his Sophomore year of high school. I still think about him everyday. Why do these things happen? James reminds me of how safe we need to be when driving and how we can only do what we can do, and make the best of it.
Savannah's life goes on, her organs were donated to five different people. She saved five lives. That in itself is so amazing!
That notion - making the best of it, living without regrets- has been on my heart. I know that if I'm honest with myself, I hold back a lot. Naturally, I'm an extrovert, who is also ultra-sensitive. I tend to want to reach out more to people more than I do, because I've become accustomed to holding back my impulses to be more like everyone else, not rock the boat.
Yet, that's just not me. When I hold back, I am filled with a sense of regret that blinds my ability to enjoy the present. Finding a healthy balance between the outside world and my immediate family (especially, my husby), puts me at ease. With all of that, I'm striving to follow my intended path for increased positive impact in the world.
Have you thought about that lately, your impact on the world?
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It seems that we're in a time of true change, everytime I hear the news, it seems like this pendulum is swinging in our culture, and it might settle somewhere better. In my 28th year, I'm thinking so much about my place on this planet and with the people around me, the people who have already become connected to me through past experience, and who I want to be as a whole.
As I look ahead at my own life path, as a person who strives to bring music & happiness to others, I see that this is going to take a bit more work, more shaking it up, than I'm used to. The tasks ahead are challenging, but are going to really take me out of my comfort zone. I can do it though, and the more I can release holding patterns in my life & in my body, the better I can be. Let it gooooo! Let it goooo!
Goal-setting is good, it's usually why I write. (Writing Your Way to Happiness)
If you're reading, hope you have a great, recharging weekend!
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